We took the boys outside and I took Evan off the deck so he
could help Eric in the shed. Watching him run through the back yard to find his
Daddy was so cute. Shortly after, I brought Alex out and put him in his walker
on the deck. That’s when it hit me; I
remember when I found out I was having twins, I pictured them running around,
playing together, getting into trouble and having that special bond that twins
have. But my twins are different. Evan runs, plays, gets into trouble while
Alex hangs back, not because he wants to but because he has to unless we physically
take him out to do things.
Do you have any idea how hard this is for me?
You have no idea.
Do you know how hard it is for me to watch my son struggle to do the simplest things like sit, stand and roll or pick up a piece of food?
Most people don’t realize how easy they have it. I was one
of those people too, until I had Alex. One of the hardest things I struggle
with being Alex’s Mom is seeing him NOT being able to do things and wanting him
to so bad. Sometimes I get ahead of myself because he is still so young and has
a lot of life ahead of him to accomplish many things.
As much as we want Alex to be like Evan, he’s not. Alex is who he is because that was God’s plan for him long before he was created and given to us as our son. (These are words of my husband) These words make me cry every time I hear them because it’s the truth. A truth that is hard for me to understand, but the truth nonetheless. A truth I wouldn’t trade for the world.
Sometimes I let my emotions get the best of me, but that is
to be expected. I don’t care who you are. Nobody’s perfect and life’s not easy but
we must make the most of what we have.
I have LOVE and their names are Eric, Alex and Evan.
Do you have any idea how lucky I am?
I love this! Your husband is a wise man. :)
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