Joy to my Heart

I have really been slacking on the blog and I do apologize to the followers. Most of February was awash with the vacation and I haven’t had much free time since being back to really sit down and get it done.

Let me start by saying that I love the communication and laughter that is being exchanged between Alex and Evan. I have always heard that twins have their own secret language and it’s finally starting to show in our household. There isn’t a day that goes by now that Evan doesn’t make Alex laugh; and it isn’t a little chuckle either, it’s a big belly laugh and it’s so contagious. I love it! Sometimes they will talk and laugh when they wake up in the morning before I go into the room; sometimes it’s a mealtime when they are sitting in their chairs waiting for the food and then there’s a moment like tonight. After dinner we were downstairs winding down before bedtime and Evan was making this funny noise with his mouth that Alex finds absolutely hilarious! I can’t tell you how much joy this brings to my heart.

There are many things lately that bring joy to my heart. Lately, Alex has been taking steps when we hold him up (usually under the armpits) and Evan is running around. It gets Alex really excited and although he tightens up because of his tone, he usually relaxes and takes steps toward Evan without us doing anything other than hold him up. It’s too early to tell if Alex will ever walk independently, but seeing him pick his feet up and take those steps gets me so excited for him! He is very lucky to have Evan. It’s great motivation and entertainment for him!

Speaking of Evan, he is such a busy body. He is trying to become more and more independent and doesn’t like being disciplined at all. This week he ended up with a knot on his forehead and a puffy lip. He really looked beat up and I felt so bad every time he got another bump or bruise. He first fell and hit a table at my in-laws and then he took a spill at the mall and bit his lip on the way down. I hate when he gets hurt, but I love being the one he runs to for comfort. He is now giving me hugs and kisses on the spot and it melts my heart every time he does it. I know it won’t last forever so I cherish every one.

Today I met up with a friend of mine who also has twins – a boy and a girl who are almost 3. We met up at the mall and I have to admit I was a bit anxious taking Evan to the play area because I didn’t want to get upset about Alex, but it ended up being ok. I took Alex around and let him go down the slide. I also brought one of his favorite toys so he had something to play with when he was sitting with us.

Now the things that don’t bring joy to my heart: The past two days have been extremely stressful on me. Evan has this new annoying cry he does when he doesn’t get his own way and is mad about it. It is very loud and gets under my skin. He was throwing a fit this morning at every little thing and I actually had to put him in timeout for the very first time. I was so embarrassed because he did it while the PT was here working with Alex. She understood my frustration, but it still isn’t something you want someone you don’t know very well to see. He also threw a fit in one of the stores at the mall today, so I guess I can say hello to the terrible twos a little early. Oh how I am not ready for this!

This week we are finally back on schedule with therapy. Yay! We lost out in February because there were issues with getting the forms signed from the Doctor, but we are finally on track for the next 3 months anyway. What an annoying process it is to get therapy for a child who needs it. I wish there was a better way. I am sure all of us with special needs children do.